I have a confession to make…
I secret eat…shhhhhhh!
What is that? It used to be that I eat things that I know are not “On Plan” or “bad for me.” Now, it’s slightly different because I eat things that I know will make me feel sick or cause havoc with my system.
A little back story.
I started following Atkins about 5 years ago and it worked, I lost a ton of weight and was getting into great shape. It got me through the police academy and I looked the best I had as an adult. I was into a size 12, yay me right?
Then disaster, I left the agency I was working for and withdrew from life. It was a pretty dark time for me. I just went through a divorce, my kids were being difficult, and I was dead broke. I was unemployed for about six months and had to use my savings and 401k to live on. My self-esteem hit the bottom and so did my hard earned health. Eventually got a job and then another one and things began to improve.
But the damage was already done. I had regained all the weight and I was miserable. I was eating whatever and it was getting worse. I decided to give up all bread and bread-like things once again. Started to feel better but still had issues.
Over the next few years I slowly whittled lots of things from my kitchen and replaced them with gluten free alternative…they called me the gluten free girl. But I just wasn’t enough. I used my surgery in June of this year as a jumping off point for my Paleo life. I gave up cold turkey. No refined sugar, no grains, no artificial or processed anything. I was already g/f so giving up the only grain I had left, rice, was easy.
The sugar, not so much. Hate it. So much. I can have honey and maple syrup, makes coffee time not so fun. I didn’t drink coffee until much further down the road.
So the main reason of this post, the secret eating. I have been doing well; I feel great and have lost some of the weight I gained pre surgery.
Then I fell off the wagon, hard. I was feeling rather blue over a breakup I’m going through, I am still an emotional eater, and I bought gelato. It was a lovely, creamy raspberry cheesecake gelato. It was so good and then I was sick, woke up with a migraine and was sick to my stomach all night and most of the next day. Lessons learned, I tossed the rest of the gelato in the trash and got right back into that wagon.
Today is a good day and I am back where I need to be.
Paleo 4 life.